We are all here on Earth in this current lifetime for a reason. Yes, I believe in reincarnation as Jesus said, “You must be born again”. We have many lifetimes to find our Christed Self that is under the overgrown hedges that keep us from being who we really are … our True Self. In this lifetime, we have made an agreement to be here and learn how to Love. So, what is your purpose? Do you know?
I was born into a fairly dire situation. I don’t like to judge how “good” or “bad” my childhood was. As “bad” as I thought it was, it was actually a “good” childhood because it positioned me to work on myself. Basically, I was born with no family. I was given up for adoption and adopted by a mother, father and brother. This family like many did not understand Love. They certainly did not understand me. Even though they were not educated or born into cultural wealth, they could have understood Love. They were also here to learn how to Love and perfectly imperfect. It was purposeful to have them as a family. I was rejected for being different. They could not understand me. I was a pain in the ass and took attention from my brother. He has been jealous of me and stopped communicating with me a long time ago. Honestly, I idolized this brother and always treated him with respect because of this. I now see how sadly fearful he is in life. The parents were neglectful. The mother was a covert narcissist and the father was never around. This situation was chosen by me before I came here so that I could implode at some point 10 years ago and be reborn. This was such a gift and therefore my childhood was as well.
So, my purpose is to learn to stand strongly and independently regardless of what others around me say. I had a lack of support. I wrote recently about our personal truths. These are truths that are just for us and not universal. Being born without family support and feeling alone in this world from the second I left the womb was necessary. It got me to a point of falling apart. My major triggers and former issues are neglect, abandonment and rejection. These are difficult for me at times. I will not say I struggle with these or that I am overcoming them. When I say that, I am claiming authority for them over me. I have overcome these issues based on the work I have done with the tools and answers I have. They still rear their ugly heads so I can continue to practice and get even better.
If I don’t practice and address the issues, then I will face them again in the next lifetime with even harder circumstances. Maybe that is why I had to be in a difficult situation as a child this time. I feel that I must have been so enmeshed with my family in a past life that I would just do as they say, adopt their views as mine and not think for myself. As a child and throughout my life, I sought acceptance and was very easily swayed with the group or person I wanted to be accepted by. It is odd because if you knew me, you may think I am such a rebel. That rebellion was out of fear. It was to be accepted. It also was associated with how dogmas don’t make sense. So, I must become strong and independent with my ideas and beliefs which make up my personal truths.
Were there situations in your life that you could not control? Like my childhood, those situations are part of our purpose here. If you are here to learn forgiveness, you will be abused and hurt until you learn to Love. An impoverished person may have been a wealthy tycoon in a past life and is here to learn how to Love.
I feel that there are many reasons for my existence here right now. The daily issues that arise can indicate our purposes. I am to learn abundance, boundaries, self-love, how to be present, etc. I am here to learn how to have Joy in this life which is everyone’s first purpose. We are here to remove the callouses that have covered our True Self and become like our Creator rooted in Love. All of our rocks in our shoes are for us to grow from.
Does this resonate? Even if you don’t believe in reincarnation, we can still be here this time to learn and grow. Recognizing your purpose, beyond having Joy, can be helpful when events happen that are out of our control and not asked for. All events can point us to our purposes. We have to be open to listen and question and practice unconditional Love for ourselves and others. We must make our own choices with our personal truths and allow others to do the same. I must respect the reasons we are all here to learn True Love.
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